Light Within Us

Many things have been told and read about perception and spreading happiness. But rarely do we realize that these two are inter-connected and so easy to attain and give. Following is an excerpt from The Bible (Luke, Chapter 11)
"No one, when he has lit a lamp, puts it in a secret place or under a basket, but on a lampstand, that those who come in may see the light.
"The lamp of the body is the eye. Therefore, when your eye is good, your whole body also is full of light. But when your eye is bad, your body also is full of darkness.
"Therefore take heed that the light which is in you is not darkness.
"If then your whole body is full of light, having no part dark, the whole body will be full of light, as when the bright shining of lamp gives you light."

Once we change our perceptions for good, the latent light within us will spark, start to glow inside us and it can go to any extent...may be a lost traveller, seeing the light from mile away, comes and asks for shelter.

Story - Always....With Me

It's a myth or some kind of belief, I don't know, but I've heard that if at night in a solitary place you smell something good, and there are no flowers around, it clearly means that there is a wandering soul, an evil spirit near you. It's better if you don't show that you smelled something good and don't even try to trace its path or turn around; rather go away normally. And for a girl like me who loves to stroll in beautiful moonlit nights all alone, a girl who is fascinated by people who smell good, it becomes a bit scary and dangerous. Many a times it has happened that I was on terrace enjoying the weather late at night, listening music on a low standard Phillips mp3 player which I got after begging my younger brother, totally engrossed in the slow paced hindi romantic songs, and then all of a sudden I sense fragrance. My so called peaceful mood, within no time, transforms into an "oh no! I must go to my room. Som...Somebody is here, next to me!!!" A shudder of electricity passes through me due to this thought.

Similar thing occurred a month back. My exams were going on, and you know how much they pressurize you. Ummm, these exams were not exams, but tragedies happening to me one after the other as 3 hours are insufficient for a sluggish writer like me, and so I couldn't complete all the questions. Anyhow, to relax myself and forget the monotonous routine of exams, I went to the balcony and noticed that the moon was ... ya ... it was ... different. I had not seen a night like that ever before in my life, except in movies of course. O no baby, don't think it was the one like we find in Yash Raj Films - romantic to the core. Instead it was horrendous - the full glowing moon surrounded with greyish shiny clouds and their silvery contours - the only thing missing was a colony (group of bats) hovering round the moon. But believe me, the sight was breath taking, so so so tempting that I could not resist going, not to the terrace, but to the park this time, opposite to my home. I grabbed the mp3 player and ran to the park in full excitement.

Soon I was dancing with the blowing cool refreshing winds. My thoughts changed. Earlier I was 'wat the hell yaar! Wen r my xams goin 2 end. Dey r freaking me out. Dey r so much torturing dat m almost on d verge f goin insane.' And the thought that they have just commenced took the toll on me. But now when I was in this park, which I never bothered to visit since two years, my thoughts were 'm lovin it! My life, the way its goin on...livin lyk a princess...i've got this, i've got dat, i've d achievements, i've d appreciation, in short, i've god's blessings. oh yes! how can i 4gt...i've d love nd m single...rocking in my single hood!!! Thank you so much Lord. I lov u nd m so grateful 2 u.'

No sooner did I think that I am rocking in my singlehood, someone joined me to knock down my super excited thoughts and it wasn't a boy... or a girl ... it was fragrance. This fragrance was, my god, so powerful and strong. I was truely captured by it. Heading towards the west while walking, I turned around to east closing my eyes inhaling that quintessential smell in which I was lost for a few seconds. Then I opened my eyes and was unnerved after realising the mistake I had done. Freezed till few moments, moving the eye balls to and fro, lips slightly apart from each other, I could not make out 'should i run or should i immediately become normal as if nothing has happened? wat if d spirit has seen me relishing the fragrance?' Really, it was so scary.

With the thoughts flooding my mind, I turned again to the west and my head was bowed, fist closed, marching faster than usual, heart beating at the highest rate, dried lips uttering - "waheguru waheguru waheguru, save me, save me, waheguru ji satnam ji, i love you, and now i really need you. Please help me ... be with me."

Suddenly this soldier ceased marching and heart beat lowering, stood erect with eyes, mouth and hands wide open, looking straight, and you can't guess why, I am damn sure. No, no, don't think I was face to face with devil. It was just ... as we may name it ... a THOUGHT that struck my mind and touched my soul. A thought that made me feel so protected at the time of danger; the thought was 'God was with you before the arrival of the spirit that's evil. Feel god before you feel the devil.' This I took as my god's answer for my "be with me" utterance.

At that point of time I not only found the warm blood but also the love and care of god rushing through my veins. After a while, I felt stupid! I mean, I have spent considerable time of my till date's life remembering god, thanking Him for what all He has given to me, what all He has done for me and my family and is this 'Fear' the result of all that? How can I say "be with me"? God is always with us, I know this from the time i started understanding language. I was 'ha!', nodding my head, smiling as if mocking myself, I flowed in front twice or thrice and rested my hands on either of my sides. But then also I could not be sad about it. Atleast I realised it. Better late than never. Consequently I was so calm, cool and composed. Those horrifying thoughts now appeared baseless to me. I resumed walking freely, seeing here and there clutching my fingers. All that left on my face was a peaceful smile that comes only when someone has felt the glory of god.

relationships

Following are few beautifully written lines....

"When the heart is open, colour and difference of culture do not make a difference. What binds humanity together is empathy, the silent chord that knots not only humans with humans but also the animal world. The flute is a hollow piece of bamboo till air is breathed into it, and then it emits the most beautiful of melodies, so also humans live only when they feel for others, their pain and try to remedy the same...otherwise it is a flesh and bone story."

Story - Never lose your Real Self

Everybody is unique in his or her own way. I too am, but I realised it a bit late.

I liked giving surprises to people close to my heart on their birthdays, to keep watching their car going till they become invisible to me, to enjoy early mornings, to dance in the rain (alone or with my family and friends), to be alone at home sometimes, to keep on appreciating the beauty of nature, in fact get engrossed in its beauty, to get emotionally attached to anyone, to win others etc. etc.. But since childhood I have never ever found a single fellow who was slightly like me...so I thought I am kind of abnormal and stupid person who does all these things. I thought I am wrong, and others are right. Consequently, this faulty learning about myself made me follow others and I lost myself...the real "me".

The complications I faced after this were confused state of mind, less of emotional bonds, inability to express my love, care and affections for others, frustrations. Above all my personality was somehow transformed from an extrovert to an introvert, which is basically not acceptable by the society.

But then, after 7 years or so, I got this friend of mine, my best friend, not just a best friend, more than that...who was exactly like me, as I was in my past. On observing her minutely, I realised that I was not the only abnormal and stupid being in this world; she too was. She liked giving surprises to loved ones, to keep watching their car going till it became invisible, to enjoy the weather early morning, to dance in the rain, to be alone at home, to appreciate nature and so on.

Very few people around you value such small yet mighty things. Very few people have astonishing insights into their lives. Very few people love to have rewards in kind rather than in cash. I realised that I am one of those few people. Sometimes I feel God send her in my life to have self awareness; and may be He has sent me to make you realise that you are unique in your own way; recognise it, cherish it and always be comfortable in your own skin.

Can't Understand What Makes People Arrogant?

If you are b'ful, you become arrogant. If you are rich, or have a rich father, you become arrogant. If you are famous, you become arrogant. If you have high intellectual powers, you become arrogant. Even if you are religious, you become arrogant.

I dont understand why??? If you look pretty, if you have sharp facial features, then is it you who has created the exterior? Have you yourself drawn your figure and it became stunning?

If you are rich and famous, then are you the only person in this world to whom such blessings have been bestowed upon?

If you are intelligent, does that mean there is a non-existence of any other intelligent fellow on this earth?

If you are religious and visit holy places regularly, you start thinking highly of yourself and feel that you are the only moral being alive. But can you say that you are equally spiritual?

Well, the answer to these questions is NO. It is GOD who has given you marvellous beauty. YOu are the creation of God. It is god who has helped you to be laborious which further helps you to amass wealth. If you are the topper of any university, then mind it there were many toppers who have passed out and will pass out. God has given equal powers to many, if not all.

Though god has given you everything, yet it is you who become arrogant and ostentatious. I wonder if GOD can become proud (and not arrogant) of HIs creations...because our arrogance, superiority feelings, jealously will never ever allow god to feel happy about what He has Made ...

poetry

Bhool gayi ye duniya

Bhool gayi duniyadari

Khoyi-khoyi si rahun main

Uske pyar ki mari

Hothon pe sada muskan rehti

Zuban pe uska naam

Sapne bune aise satrangi

Bekhabar rahun subah-shaam.........

my first blog

In this blog, I would like to share my very first piece of writing, a short and simple poem...

Some are born dancers

Some are born singers

Some are born to rule the world

Some are born to worship god

Some are born to live on Mars

Some are born to struggle on Earth

But

I am born to win your heart

I am born to love you, my love.