It's a myth or some kind of belief, I don't know, but I've heard that if at night in a solitary place you smell something good, and there are no flowers around, it clearly means that there is a wandering soul, an evil spirit near you. It's better if you don't show that you smelled something good and don't even try to trace its path or turn around; rather go away normally. And for a girl like me who loves to stroll in beautiful moonlit nights all alone, a girl who is fascinated by people who smell good, it becomes a bit scary and dangerous. Many a times it has happened that I was on terrace enjoying the weather late at night, listening music on a low standard Phillips mp3 player which I got after begging my younger brother, totally engrossed in the slow paced hindi romantic songs, and then all of a sudden I sense fragrance. My so called peaceful mood, within no time, transforms into an "oh no! I must go to my room. Som...Somebody is here, next to me!!!" A shudder of electricity passes through me due to this thought.
Similar thing occurred a month back. My exams were going on, and you know how much they pressurize you. Ummm, these exams were not exams, but tragedies happening to me one after the other as 3 hours are insufficient for a sluggish writer like me, and so I couldn't complete all the questions. Anyhow, to relax myself and forget the monotonous routine of exams, I went to the balcony and noticed that the moon was ... ya ... it was ... different. I had not seen a night like that ever before in my life, except in movies of course. O no baby, don't think it was the one like we find in Yash Raj Films - romantic to the core. Instead it was horrendous - the full glowing moon surrounded with greyish shiny clouds and their silvery contours - the only thing missing was a colony (group of bats) hovering round the moon. But believe me, the sight was breath taking, so so so tempting that I could not resist going, not to the terrace, but to the park this time, opposite to my home. I grabbed the mp3 player and ran to the park in full excitement.
Soon I was dancing with the blowing cool refreshing winds. My thoughts changed. Earlier I was 'wat the hell yaar! Wen r my xams goin 2 end. Dey r freaking me out. Dey r so much torturing dat m almost on d verge f goin insane.' And the thought that they have just commenced took the toll on me. But now when I was in this park, which I never bothered to visit since two years, my thoughts were 'm lovin it! My life, the way its goin on...livin lyk a princess...i've got this, i've got dat, i've d achievements, i've d appreciation, in short, i've god's blessings. oh yes! how can i 4gt...i've d love nd m single...rocking in my single hood!!! Thank you so much Lord. I lov u nd m so grateful 2 u.'
No sooner did I think that I am rocking in my singlehood, someone joined me to knock down my super excited thoughts and it wasn't a boy... or a girl ... it was fragrance. This fragrance was, my god, so powerful and strong. I was truely captured by it. Heading towards the west while walking, I turned around to east closing my eyes inhaling that quintessential smell in which I was lost for a few seconds. Then I opened my eyes and was unnerved after realising the mistake I had done. Freezed till few moments, moving the eye balls to and fro, lips slightly apart from each other, I could not make out 'should i run or should i immediately become normal as if nothing has happened? wat if d spirit has seen me relishing the fragrance?' Really, it was so scary.
With the thoughts flooding my mind, I turned again to the west and my head was bowed, fist closed, marching faster than usual, heart beating at the highest rate, dried lips uttering - "waheguru waheguru waheguru, save me, save me, waheguru ji satnam ji, i love you, and now i really need you. Please help me ... be with me."
Suddenly this soldier ceased marching and heart beat lowering, stood erect with eyes, mouth and hands wide open, looking straight, and you can't guess why, I am damn sure. No, no, don't think I was face to face with devil. It was just ... as we may name it ... a THOUGHT that struck my mind and touched my soul. A thought that made me feel so protected at the time of danger; the thought was 'God was with you before the arrival of the spirit that's evil. Feel god before you feel the devil.' This I took as my god's answer for my "be with me" utterance.
At that point of time I not only found the warm blood but also the love and care of god rushing through my veins. After a while, I felt stupid! I mean, I have spent considerable time of my till date's life remembering god, thanking Him for what all He has given to me, what all He has done for me and my family and is this 'Fear' the result of all that? How can I say "be with me"? God is always with us, I know this from the time i started understanding language. I was 'ha!', nodding my head, smiling as if mocking myself, I flowed in front twice or thrice and rested my hands on either of my sides. But then also I could not be sad about it. Atleast I realised it. Better late than never. Consequently I was so calm, cool and composed. Those horrifying thoughts now appeared baseless to me. I resumed walking freely, seeing here and there clutching my fingers. All that left on my face was a peaceful smile that comes only when someone has felt the glory of god.
Similar thing occurred a month back. My exams were going on, and you know how much they pressurize you. Ummm, these exams were not exams, but tragedies happening to me one after the other as 3 hours are insufficient for a sluggish writer like me, and so I couldn't complete all the questions. Anyhow, to relax myself and forget the monotonous routine of exams, I went to the balcony and noticed that the moon was ... ya ... it was ... different. I had not seen a night like that ever before in my life, except in movies of course. O no baby, don't think it was the one like we find in Yash Raj Films - romantic to the core. Instead it was horrendous - the full glowing moon surrounded with greyish shiny clouds and their silvery contours - the only thing missing was a colony (group of bats) hovering round the moon. But believe me, the sight was breath taking, so so so tempting that I could not resist going, not to the terrace, but to the park this time, opposite to my home. I grabbed the mp3 player and ran to the park in full excitement.
Soon I was dancing with the blowing cool refreshing winds. My thoughts changed. Earlier I was 'wat the hell yaar! Wen r my xams goin 2 end. Dey r freaking me out. Dey r so much torturing dat m almost on d verge f goin insane.' And the thought that they have just commenced took the toll on me. But now when I was in this park, which I never bothered to visit since two years, my thoughts were 'm lovin it! My life, the way its goin on...livin lyk a princess...i've got this, i've got dat, i've d achievements, i've d appreciation, in short, i've god's blessings. oh yes! how can i 4gt...i've d love nd m single...rocking in my single hood!!! Thank you so much Lord. I lov u nd m so grateful 2 u.'
No sooner did I think that I am rocking in my singlehood, someone joined me to knock down my super excited thoughts and it wasn't a boy... or a girl ... it was fragrance. This fragrance was, my god, so powerful and strong. I was truely captured by it. Heading towards the west while walking, I turned around to east closing my eyes inhaling that quintessential smell in which I was lost for a few seconds. Then I opened my eyes and was unnerved after realising the mistake I had done. Freezed till few moments, moving the eye balls to and fro, lips slightly apart from each other, I could not make out 'should i run or should i immediately become normal as if nothing has happened? wat if d spirit has seen me relishing the fragrance?' Really, it was so scary.
With the thoughts flooding my mind, I turned again to the west and my head was bowed, fist closed, marching faster than usual, heart beating at the highest rate, dried lips uttering - "waheguru waheguru waheguru, save me, save me, waheguru ji satnam ji, i love you, and now i really need you. Please help me ... be with me."
Suddenly this soldier ceased marching and heart beat lowering, stood erect with eyes, mouth and hands wide open, looking straight, and you can't guess why, I am damn sure. No, no, don't think I was face to face with devil. It was just ... as we may name it ... a THOUGHT that struck my mind and touched my soul. A thought that made me feel so protected at the time of danger; the thought was 'God was with you before the arrival of the spirit that's evil. Feel god before you feel the devil.' This I took as my god's answer for my "be with me" utterance.
At that point of time I not only found the warm blood but also the love and care of god rushing through my veins. After a while, I felt stupid! I mean, I have spent considerable time of my till date's life remembering god, thanking Him for what all He has given to me, what all He has done for me and my family and is this 'Fear' the result of all that? How can I say "be with me"? God is always with us, I know this from the time i started understanding language. I was 'ha!', nodding my head, smiling as if mocking myself, I flowed in front twice or thrice and rested my hands on either of my sides. But then also I could not be sad about it. Atleast I realised it. Better late than never. Consequently I was so calm, cool and composed. Those horrifying thoughts now appeared baseless to me. I resumed walking freely, seeing here and there clutching my fingers. All that left on my face was a peaceful smile that comes only when someone has felt the glory of god.
